Have you ever set your self up for a disappointment? Sure, I think we've all done that at some point in our lives.
Well, I have done it to myself. It can be perfectly understandable to another woman how that disappointment hurts and burns like hell, but to my Darling Hubby....."It's not a big deal, don't worry about it, don't let it get you down"
Easy for him to say. No I am not bitter or angry toward him for it, we have an understanding that Yes, our sexes are different and therefore we understand things VERY differently. But still, it felt harsh.
Well, now that I am NOT pregnant, I am going through the standard list of doubts. Maybe it's a sign that I should be happy with my two beautiful and healthy boys and leave it at that. Or maybe it's a sign that I should be working on getting my body back in a healthier state (and weight). Should I add the stress of how I'm gonna feed him/her? (Cause my jugs didn't give more than 1 or 2 ounces per, for two weeks-then nothin') Should I add another 3 years of diapers and sleepless nights to myself?
And how about the stress of finding a 4 bedroom home that we can actually afford???? not pleasant.
Then there's the fact that after my youngest outgrew all of the baby gear we gave it all away to other mommies in need of them, so I would have to go begging around. I know we cannot go out and buy everything again.....too much cost in that!
So, I am just sitting here wondering if I am grateful for not being pregnant, or sad because I missed out on my X-Mas/New Year's Baby?? (There's a small joke involved in that one!!)
So what do y'all have to say....I AM actually interested and I know that there are a lot of readers out there, so go ahead and tell me what you think?!?!?
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Monday, April 25, 2011
How my house was attacked......by the Easter Bunny
You know, every parent at some point in their parenthood tells really big lies to their kids and then enjoys the stress of watching it spiral out of control. Not to mention the stress of trying to remember the crap you've fed your kids in the past so as not to fuck up in the future!
It of course starts with the lore of Santa. How he comes into your homes, what he does when someone does not have a fireplace, and when he comes by. Then there is the treacherous mean spirited bugger that is the Leprechaun...although i have yet to introduce him to our home!
But, this year, as with every year since my kids were born I have told them of the Easter Bunny. My oldest never questioned, and my youngest was armed with a million of them this year. So I had to cleverly come up with the answer of where the Bunny lives and makes the candy while at the cash register of the local Wal-mart with a line full of parents buying these Easter paraphernalia (which he did not miss seeing) for their unsuspecting children and not blow my own cover!
I seem to remember something about a den in the ground, and after he asked why he couldn't go there to steal the candy himself, I believe I replied that because his location was a secret that no one knows about.
You think that stopped my boy from asking more?? Hell, NO!
I had to then compare it to Santa, we know where Santa lives and there is no fear of those gifts being stolen because it is too cold in the North Pole for anyone to be able to find him and steal the presents away.
Anyway, after the millions of questions and the answers that finally satisfied them I had to keep up appearances on the home front.
The Easter Bunny left plastic eggs with candies in them and little chocolates all over the house. Stairs, Plants, Tabletops, in the kitchen even! But the little devil had a hard time getting up onto the dining table and knocked down a dining chair!
Wow, the boys didn't know what in the world had run through our house and wrecked it!! The had theories of the size of the bunny that had wreaked havoc in our home, although neither of them came even close to the approximately 210 lbs rabbit that in actual fact hid the candy! SHHHHH
Don't anyone tell!!
It of course starts with the lore of Santa. How he comes into your homes, what he does when someone does not have a fireplace, and when he comes by. Then there is the treacherous mean spirited bugger that is the Leprechaun...although i have yet to introduce him to our home!
But, this year, as with every year since my kids were born I have told them of the Easter Bunny. My oldest never questioned, and my youngest was armed with a million of them this year. So I had to cleverly come up with the answer of where the Bunny lives and makes the candy while at the cash register of the local Wal-mart with a line full of parents buying these Easter paraphernalia (which he did not miss seeing) for their unsuspecting children and not blow my own cover!
I seem to remember something about a den in the ground, and after he asked why he couldn't go there to steal the candy himself, I believe I replied that because his location was a secret that no one knows about.
You think that stopped my boy from asking more?? Hell, NO!
I had to then compare it to Santa, we know where Santa lives and there is no fear of those gifts being stolen because it is too cold in the North Pole for anyone to be able to find him and steal the presents away.
Anyway, after the millions of questions and the answers that finally satisfied them I had to keep up appearances on the home front.
The Easter Bunny left plastic eggs with candies in them and little chocolates all over the house. Stairs, Plants, Tabletops, in the kitchen even! But the little devil had a hard time getting up onto the dining table and knocked down a dining chair!
Wow, the boys didn't know what in the world had run through our house and wrecked it!! The had theories of the size of the bunny that had wreaked havoc in our home, although neither of them came even close to the approximately 210 lbs rabbit that in actual fact hid the candy! SHHHHH
Don't anyone tell!!
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Don't Do That!!
How many times do you hear "Don't Do That" in a normal day?
You'd be surprised if you actually took stock! Think, firstly, of all the ways that you can say it, and think of all the different ways someone could say it to you. And then go through a day or two just to see how often it actually is!
My quick reply would have to be "TOO DAMN MANY"
As grown-ups we should have the right to do things with our lives that may or may not be the right choice, without the bombardment of all those around us who think they know better than we do! As grown -ups if we choose to fuck something up, shut the fuck up and let us do it!
There is nothing I hate more than listening to others tell me what I can't do. Is that a dare? Are you testing me? Cause God damn it or you, cause I am sure as hell going to do it just because you said not to!
My 20s were all about the dare, that's how I snagged my hubby!! He dared me to pour iced water on him, in a sweltering hot basement bar at a wedding, and I did it!!
Now I am less unpredictable, and I may say that is unfortunate, but I am working on a head of steam that will cause a few unpredictable events in the next little while, so look the fuck out!!
You'd be surprised if you actually took stock! Think, firstly, of all the ways that you can say it, and think of all the different ways someone could say it to you. And then go through a day or two just to see how often it actually is!
My quick reply would have to be "TOO DAMN MANY"
As grown-ups we should have the right to do things with our lives that may or may not be the right choice, without the bombardment of all those around us who think they know better than we do! As grown -ups if we choose to fuck something up, shut the fuck up and let us do it!
There is nothing I hate more than listening to others tell me what I can't do. Is that a dare? Are you testing me? Cause God damn it or you, cause I am sure as hell going to do it just because you said not to!
My 20s were all about the dare, that's how I snagged my hubby!! He dared me to pour iced water on him, in a sweltering hot basement bar at a wedding, and I did it!!
Now I am less unpredictable, and I may say that is unfortunate, but I am working on a head of steam that will cause a few unpredictable events in the next little while, so look the fuck out!!
Monday, April 4, 2011
I had a dream last night....now I have a whole new bunch of crap to think of
That's right! Like I am not trying to figure out enough, now I have this series of dreams making me think of what would I do if....
Dream #1 Hubby dies and leaves me widowed with two kids to look after.
Dream #2 Hubby and kids die in an accident and I am left all alone.
Yup, I had a banana before going to bed....bad idea!
So, now I am horrified to think what if this did happen?? Or what if it was hubby and I that dies? What will happen to the kids? UGH....time to think of wills and life insurance. Yuck, I hate growing up sometimes!
Life insurance not really too scary, but what about the kids?? Who should we leave to care for our kids? What an awful thing to have to think about. What are you supposed to do, randomly ask people you know if they'd be willing to care for your kids in the event of parental death?
The options are quite slim, my kids don't know their godparents anymore, and there are two sets of grandparents so what about that option? Then there's the offending nature of choosing one set over the other.
And what if I were left alone with the kids? What in the hell am I going to do to make ends meet? I have no college or university degree to get a job that pays worth a damn, Hell, I've been out of the work force for years! I am a stay at home homeschooling mom. What will that give me??
I can only hope that life insurance would leave enough to live off for a while, but it won't last forever. And I haven't even got that yet.
Let's open the lines of communication here.....have you figured out who would take your kids in? Do they know? Do your kids know?
Dream #1 Hubby dies and leaves me widowed with two kids to look after.
Dream #2 Hubby and kids die in an accident and I am left all alone.
Yup, I had a banana before going to bed....bad idea!
So, now I am horrified to think what if this did happen?? Or what if it was hubby and I that dies? What will happen to the kids? UGH....time to think of wills and life insurance. Yuck, I hate growing up sometimes!
Life insurance not really too scary, but what about the kids?? Who should we leave to care for our kids? What an awful thing to have to think about. What are you supposed to do, randomly ask people you know if they'd be willing to care for your kids in the event of parental death?
The options are quite slim, my kids don't know their godparents anymore, and there are two sets of grandparents so what about that option? Then there's the offending nature of choosing one set over the other.
And what if I were left alone with the kids? What in the hell am I going to do to make ends meet? I have no college or university degree to get a job that pays worth a damn, Hell, I've been out of the work force for years! I am a stay at home homeschooling mom. What will that give me??
I can only hope that life insurance would leave enough to live off for a while, but it won't last forever. And I haven't even got that yet.
Let's open the lines of communication here.....have you figured out who would take your kids in? Do they know? Do your kids know?
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